I felt tired. I cant smile as if I'm really happy nowadays. I cant help myself from thinking negatively right now. I don't like the present me to face you, because I'm too tired and let you face with such an unhappy of me,
neglecting your feelings. Vice versa, I doesnt wish you to do same to me too. I wan to be like the past. I wan back the feeling when all tiredness will just go off upon the moment seeing you.