nothin big deal??
O gosh.. hav been almost half a yr, nv been bogging le..
So many tings took place in tis period, dun actually noe where to start fro again..
I jus kinda a bit of sadness recently.. seeing him like tat, thinkin of de person tat i like before is unhappy, its jus cant help to make me feel sad like de same way..

Previously, something took place which reminds me of him once again.. i missed him, i called him up but i didnt sae anythin to him.. it jus reminds me of wat decision tat i took in de past which makes me regrets till now..
i tried to keep myself away fro our close relationship.. i started not to contact him, rejecting his calls and keep all my decision fro him.. quitin my job, rejectin de chance to work wif him, knee surgery and hospitalise things.. he only got to know all tis things fro other frene's mouth after de things took place.. i wanted to get into ploy as soon as possible, cos i tot once i got into ploy i'll get a new grp of frene which i'll able to hang out wif, n stay away fro him..
Ya, i success in doin tat, keeping myself away fro him, but i do find ploy doesnt really suits me.. Right now we'r almost like strangers, even we meet in a grp.. we also dun hav any topics at all, n doesnt speaks up to three sentences.. its jus like feeling to cry fro heart, but tis results are actually created by all myself.. i'm jus findin trouble for myself..